A fucking shot

This is a slightly redacted paragraph from an email I sent to Mr. Maron in March.  It was regarding a 13 yr-old kidnapping victim who was found alive.  A 34 yr-old man buddied up to her online (easy as shit to do now days.  It would've been surprising to me to discover anyone even noticed this adult grooming that child in the first place), got her pm'ing, had no problem convincing her he was a nice guy, then met her and got her in his vehicle.  He took her to another state, sexually assaulted her multiple times, then locked her up.  She was rescued.  If she does happen to receive decent, compassionate help over the next few years, she may end up becoming one of the lucky few.  Statistically, the odds aren't in her favor. 

My ability to find hope that Mr. Maron had started to change how he feels girls assaulted like this can be treated by older men, had about reached its limit by March.  My cynicism is apparent in my tone.  (I should mention here that part of me is telling myself it is "bad" of me to express my anger in this way.  The rest of me?  It's sayin, "Oh well.")

"Mar 14, 2023, 5:00 AM"

Yeah, there is a current example of a child being horribly harmed, bcuz of an online predator grooming that child. The child was found. Rescued. Now, she will go thru decades of quite probably being re-exploited by therapists, doctors, teachers, interviewers, etc, and she will be blamed for all of it. So, do us (broken girls) all a favor, and do not reach out to "help" this child "resolve" her issues, okay? Do not "trauma bond" with this child. She did not suddenly gain "agency," while being sexually assaulted repeatedly. She did not suddenly gain adult wisdom, and now knows exactly what old men predators are going to want to do to her.  She does not know at all what she is in for . She is NOT "asking for it."  Do not say you "can't say no" to this "lunatic" child, and leave her mind further warped and malformed when you are done with her, okay?  Give her a fucking shot.

Bono, my favorite preacher

 For a little poet with a broken heart, and a gun. I hope you live long enough to have more to write about than pain.  

Stay safe tonight

A Break

 This is me, just trying to decompress.  The last 7 days have been stressful in new ways for me.  Prolly not supposed to admit that.  But the last post made me have to re-feel the stress of wondering if I would have to know a girl had killed herself because of a comedian, and I hadn't done enough to keep it from happening.

I didn't want any of these last 8 months.  I tried to pass it off to others, those who have more tools.  I don't think those others could understand like I do.  Or maybe my written communication skills have dropped over this past 8 months.  Tonight I am exhausted.  But I can't sleep.  

I swear to god, if anyone tries to tell me I am doing this for any fucking selfish reasons, I'm gonna wish I could take everything I am feeling at this moment,  and have felt this last 8 months, and just drop that shit right into their heads.

The worst part is knowing damn well nothin is gonna come outta this.  Nothin.  Goddammit, this pain being shoved onto these damaged young lives by maron and other predators is so fuckin wrong.  But he'll just keep smiling, reading a book about turkeys to children in a video shown in our public school system.  In a couple years, some of the kids who saw that video last Thanksgiving may very well be in a crisis like I just described in my last post, brought on by the very man their school first introduced them to.  And those suicidal kids will be blamed.

Can't we do better than this, for the kids being abused this second?  A 59 yr old man cannot be less to blame than the girl with the AMT Backup.  She was only 12 or so when maron taped that turkey story.  How can she, how can any damaged child, be more to blame than a 59 yr-old man who's been doing this for decades?

I don't understand. 

October crisis emails

Excerpts from some of the emails regarding the girl in recovery who went through an escalating crisis last Oct.

Oct 26, 2022, 11:36 AM

I have no idea how many broken girls you are juggling right now. When one of your victims is truly reaching a crisis point, and you are aware, the only single thing you can do is call 911 for that girl right away. I know this could have consequences in your life. It is the only real help you can give.  

This is where your behavior will always take these girls. Always.  

You may not care. Girls have been here before because of you and you have continued risking more girls.

Goddam, maron. I do not want to know, in real time, any of this shit.

__________

Oct 26, 2022, 5:25 PM

I have no idea why the hell my life went this direction 2 months ago. (Feels more like 2 years, today) But whatever it is I am doing, I need to remember the difference between what I may want, and what I can control.

I can't control any single moment where you choose to harm broken girls. I can't control if any of your victims commit suicide. Whatever happens, you have been making these choices for 30+ years. My heart hurts for the broken one I knew of today. She disappeared. Either you have recontacted her, or she got help, or she is freaking out, or she could even be gone. If you contacted her because of my email, I may have made it so next time she goes through an even worse crisis. If so, this is now way worse. You can never help her, except by dialing 911. You can only harm her. You sentenced her to hell the day you first preyed on her. There is NOTHING you can do to help her, or any other young exploited girl, except to leave them the hell alone.

I hate to admit this, but you may not care at all that some girl you preyed on is suicidal. You have done this to girls before. 

I hate today.

I may have to know when one of your victims kills herself. I never realized that could be part of this goddam rabbit hole. I have no control over anything, outside of what I choose to type here.

__________

Oct 26, 2022, 9:44 PM

That girl is back... I am not reading anymore there tonight. Tired of seeing your damage. 

__________

Oct 27, 2022, 5:24 AM

 You are an expert at preying on sexually exploited girls. You have been doing it 30+ years.

There is a lot you needlessly beat yourself up for. Maybe trying to avoid the one thing you know is wrong? Fix that one thing. You know how. You could become more comfortable in your own mind.

...said that while fucking her, you joked that she was your meeting, and you would have to attend that meeting again. I can't see you joking about meetings, but 2 months ago, I couldn't imagine you pledging love and shit to broken girls, either. Doing that to their minds and emotions was once too heartless for me to imagine you doing. You destroy their ability to ever recognize real love for the rest of their lives. You leave them a shell. Just like me. Nothing you feel for them is love. 

_________

Oct 30, 2022, 4:16 AM

It was disappointing to realize that you purposely use meetings to prey on broken girls. "Redacted name's" words to you on Wed were embarrassing for me to have to witness. They showed how warped you know these girls are, how broken, immature, and emotionally stunted they are. At meetings, where those broken girls most need to be protected from predators like you, your age and celebrity and "wisdom", (boy, we both know how full of shit that word is, when describing what those broken girls are being taught as they are drawn in by your grooming, don't we, maron...) make it easier to prey on the victim of your choice.  

Too rough? Ask me if I care.

___________

Oct 31, 2022, 8:08 AM

These interactions are not a partnership or healthy. She has been broken much more now. Her next stop in life is going to be even worse. That is the horribly twisted definition of "love" she will carry for years, decades, maybe life. Nothing about the twisted sick exploitive thing you did to her is love, but the next old predadator who approaches her will be radiating predatory "vibes" that she is going to think is love. So fucking sad. When you are done with her, you will say that you had warned her that you were unable to accept love, it's her fault for everything. So, your victim will be devastated, thinking they did not show enough "love" to you so you left, and when the next predator spots that broken victim, that re-exploited victim will be desperately trying even harder to show that predator even more of your perverted definition of "love" that you taught them, in the hopes that the latest predator will not leave them. Can you follow all of that, maron? Really understand it? Real love can, by the defining characteristics of real love, never be present in any predatory relationship you have ever had. 

Lynn was a fully grown, mature stable peer. Not an obviously damaged girl whose potential healing and potential future adult experiences you are exploitively stealing.

I hope, whatever you decide about "redacted name," you will get advice from SLAA members first.

I hope you will finally stop the tears and pain and ruined lives you have left behind you, with every broken girl you have re-exploited. 

__________

Nov 1, 2022, 4:45 AM

A fucking book I've written in your inbox.  Time plus behavior. Gonna wait and really see some truth. Gotta say, maron, I will damn sure speak up next time one of your victims is saying she wants to die. If you can't care about your life enough to mind your mind, why the fuck should I care about your life more than the life of these damaged girls you destroy?

Email property

 All emails written by me to wtfpod.com are my words, created solely by me, and as such, will not be published by anyone without negotiating payment.  I'd say about a million dollars to NAMI would be a good start.

Somewhere tonight...

 ...are 2 different girls who are experiencing emotional damage.   One has a gun, and the man who left her suicidal recently, had to calm her down by reconnecting with her, because I knew what was happening, and if he didn't calm her down, he suddenly realized he could now get in trouble, if she harmed herself.  Meanwhile, another girl, who was simply following covid cleaning protocol on the set of a show about to be released, has to deal with the indecent exposure a rising-in-popularity comedian perpetrated on her last summer, and never had to answer for.  (Maron, you readin' this?  For god's sake don't try to contact her.  Hear me, motherfucker?!  The last thing she needs is any more of you.)

Oh, there's a 3rd girl, too, the one in crisis last Oct.  He reconnected with her back then, so he wouldn't be exposed by her escalating crisis.  She is now happily interacting on his Instagram posts again.  Goddess help her, unless he plans on hookin' up permanent, she's just gonna go through all of it again.

As is the one with an AMT Backup in her possession. 

Oh well, it's all legal, right?  Their fault.  Not his.

Who's smiling now

Here are two teens.

https://www.cnn.com/2023/05/01/us/oklahoma-henryentta-bodies-ivy-webster/index.html

School system wonders what they can do.  Maybe stop showing Thanksgiving readings by people little children will see as safe.  Kids are never safe when predators are marketed to them.  Leave drag queens the hell alone.  Children learn who to trust from those they have marketed to them.

Any fathers of little girls, if you see your daughter drawing Mr. Snake to send to the man who voices him, stop and sit with that for awhile. (Imagine the smile on Maron's face as he reads that last sentence, too.)  See, that thing you're feeling, that's what everyone should be feeling about children being taught that predators like Mr. Maron are safe.  Every parent or guardian needs to sit with this thought.

That fucking sda principal is in his element right now.  jesus...

Time plus behavior

That grooming post is still right there, drawing in those children.  Just as his book-reading will be put out before Thanksgiving.  While drag queen bookreadings are the ones being shut down.  He is already fucking girls who were still children when he first made that turkey reading just a couple years back.  Nobody's gonna care.  In fact, they'll probably enjoy knowing it hurts that bitch who dared to speak up.

That grooming post was Mr. Maron's first post after he read my email "Well, hell."  I guess I gotta admit that was his response to my earnest email, an email sent while I still believed he wasn't aware of the damage he was doing.  

I know he is covering his ass.  I know he is still gonna get away with everything he's been doing.  (You know why?  Because he can. )  I also know his real heart.  Because I hurt my emotional and mental well-being for the last 8 months, trying to reach that heart, and only when he's finally in danger of authorities getting into his online accounts, is he gonna act like he is trying to do something about this mess.

Time plus behavior, old man.  

Mr. Maron

 Great of you to finally respond with that reel.  Sad some of my most pain-filled, personal posts over this past 8 months, trying to reach your heart, did nothing.  Only when I put myself in a fucking public light, where I will receive all kinds of sick messages and emails, did you react in any manner at all.

Hope nobody's expecting me to kiss the ground you walk on now.  Eight months of hell...

But yeah, I am glad for the reel.  My group needs whatever crumbs get thrown their way.

Keepin' it reel

 Since my millennial moment in Aug of 2022, when I mentioned to Mr. Maron never putting a warning anywhere, or letting authorities know that his underage followers were being approached on his posts by fake Maron accounts, he did post a couple of IG Stories, warning folks away from those accounts.  I am glad to see he posted something a bit more substantial in a reel today.  Those making jokes about his warning must not have seen 2 recent news stories about young teen girls being kidnapped, raped, and locked up, by men who were able to get to them online.  One was found in a shed.  That IG warning is more important than Mr. Maron, or his fans, seem to realize.  Do they realize where those girls will be in a couple years?  Actually, they'll probably be getting fucked by old predators, and blamed for how someone fucked up their head as a child, because no one was protecting them online.

Truly is no wonder teen girls are self-harming and killing themselves at higher rates.

It was important to stop using using the R word, because of how it made people feel.  It was important to stop telling homophobic jokes, because their lives were in danger, and their suicide rate was so high.

I wish sexualized children could escape being exploited and laughed at.  I wish I didn't have to be a goddam squeaky wheel to get an Instagram Reel put up, because I finally found the right combination of words to make it happen.