Service

 

Oct 25, 2022, 7:36 AM

Listening to you and Jeremy Strong. Really good so far. You are discussing the service Jeremy's parents each gave. And I heard it again, a moment in your voice that I have heard before, where it seems like you wish you were doing some sort of service-type thing. I hope you waste no moments beating yourself up over that.

I'm not sure you realize the mitzvahs you perform on a daily basis. I will give you a couple of examples. First, I have worked in Shelter/Rescue/Spay-Neuter medicine for the last 14 years. (yeah, I'm more like Kit than you know.) There are people I run into every day who say, "Oh, I would love to help at the shelter, but it would break my heart to see all those animals. I would want to take them all home." Rescue workers often reply to this by saying there are many ways people can help other than volunteering at a shelter. There are 2 things that, if every household in the US simply did these 2 things, the population of stray/feral cats and dogs would be greatly reduced within a couple of years. If every household had their current pets altered, and if every household adopted one homeless cat or dog, that would be the greatest services that can be done. You have been doing both of those most important services for years. And as a person with a public platform, you have reached thousands of listeners by talking about your cats. I personally helped trap some feral cats on a woman's property years ago, and I remember she told me it was from "That Mr. Maron" on that "WWF" podcast that she learned what to do about those feral cats being dumped on her property. Our shelter workers knew about Boomer going missing all those years ago, and I remember one of us going online every morning to see if he was back. We all felt invested in that story and empathized with your pain. There is an equation that shows how many offspring one unaltered female cat, and each of her ongoing offspring, can produce in ten years. I have a shirt from FCCO with that equation on it, from the days I used to drive transport with 60+ cats from a shelter to be fixed at their facility. That same equation is also the number of potential cats who do not end up suffering, when a single cat gets altered. You have already personally saved millions of cats from being born into needless suffering, by fixing the cats you have had altered. Add up every person you inspired to fix their own pets, and you have done a huge amount of service for stray/feral cats. (Link to equation: The Feral Cat Equation — Feral Cat Coalition of Oregon:  Equation  )

The other mitzvah you do all of the time? You make people laugh. Better still, you help people push back at darkness by finding the humor in darkness. In this fucked up world, give me your comedy over 500 fucking sermons from some "christian" pulpit any day, to truly make the world a better place.

I am not trying to be cruel or snarky here, but there is truly one more service you could do. (You probably know what I will type.) You could stop re-abusing sexualized girls, and you could never flash any girl again. Those things cause horrendous damage. Nobody gets over doing those kinds of behaviors on their own. Please go to SLAA. It would be a huge service, for everyone.

Bumper Stickers

"Bumper Stickers"

Oct 23, 2022, 9:11 AM

So, maron, you ever get tired of assholes speaking like they are not racist or antisemitic, but you know, by simply listening to them closely, and observing how they consistently behave, noticing the confederate flag bumper sticker on their car, catching certain words and phrases they toss about, that they would be very comfortable at a proudboy gathering or kkk rally. Isn't it mind blowing how people you know, friends of yours, can listen to that same asshole, and tell you that you are wrong, that the asshole doesn't have a racist bone their body. People just walk around in denial, wallowing in their refusal to see truth, then have the temerity to appear shocked when a supermarket or synagogue is shot up, leaving broken lives and devastated families behind. I have heard you talk about some nice neighbor greeting you in a friendly way, but you are forced by circumstances in this country to wonder if that nice neighbor could come for you and take you by gunpoint to be placed in some sort of "camp" next week, if they were told to do it by assholes in power. It hurts, to have to realize that people you think are decent, people all around your neighborhood and within your country, could actually treat you or others you care about in such a terrible way.

It hurt my heart to have to realize that you, a gifted comedian I thought was a good guy, had no qualms about behaving like the principal. It hurt to know you had harmed many people just like me. Imagine that one neighbor who visited you and had you over after Lynn died, showing up one morning with a gun and some fucked up trump symbol sewn onto his jacket. That would hurt you, in your heart. In the end, it probably wouldn't surprise you much, because you are very aware of what humans are capable of. But it would still hurt.

It hurts, to remember how much joy and laughter I was experiencing this summer, how easily I believed you had a good heart, how it lightened my darkness to hear your description of mike pence at the second coming. Tears of fucking laughter! If the world is gonna end soon anyway, I wish putin woulda hit the button as I was thoroughly enjoying that scene. I could have been incinerated with a smile on my face, and an innocent enjoyment of a decent man's comedy.  

I miss viewing you that way. I can't enjoy you that way now. It's like I caught a glimpse of some bumper sticker that exposed what you really believe. That hurts.

Uncancellable

To wtfpod.com

Sep 9, 2022, 5:21 AM

Wondering how long you can expect to see these emails show up in your inbox? I guess you will discover how relentless some people with "daddy issues" can be, especially when they have to find out they purchased tickets to see a comedian who should have gone down in flames the first week of "Me,Too." Whitney Cummings phrased it perfectly. She said you'd never be cancelled. She didn't say you did not deserve to be cancelled. She didn't say you had never done anything cancellable. Just that you wouldn't get cancelled.  

So, I guess you can expect an email visit from me any random damn time, unless you turn these emails in to the FBI, or you get cancelled, or you have a moment of clarity and apologize publicly for the damage you have caused and get real help (ha haaaaaa!! See, I got jokes, too)

Funny how the purchase of tickets for an event that was supposed to give me a brief moment of happiness this holiday season, has turned into a millennial-learning-moment for me that made me see the "Me,Too" movement missed a number of you jerks, and has now given me a tiny bit of purpose. To every once in awhile let you know that while the rest of the world may ignore it, there is one person who knows exactly what you are doing. Not the best of purposes, but it'll do. Sometimes life does throw me a bone.

More later...

Taking a knee

 Apr 6, 2023, 2:59 AM

Colin Kaepernick got tired of watching police officers murder young men who looked like him. His first public reaction, from the platform afforded to him by his membership in pro football, was to remain seated during the national anthem, an anthem of a country where the assault and murder of people like Colin was being carried out regularly with zero repercussions. When a veteran talked to Colin about how he might be better able to bring attention to those atrocities while still honoring veterans, a group subjected to their own brand of suffering, Colin listened. He didn't have to listen to that veteran. But his desire for justice and respect came from a truly compassionate place, so Colin took that veteran's words to heart, and chose to make his stand in a beautiful way, a way that could do more to bring attention to a cause he felt deeply about. An important cause, where the lives of very real humans were being destroyed and stolen all the time, right in front of everyone's gaze. And nothing was being done to stop it. Colin's cause ended up being distorted and refocused at times, by those who don't care about that cause at all, or even enjoy seeing such atrocities continue. But Colin did make a difference. His reasoned out action of taking a knee brought attention to the systemic destruction of people who were part of the othered group that Colin belonged to. He found a way to get more people talking about systemic racism. It did not stop that racism, but it did help. His deeply felt need to stop the horrendous abuses that hurt his heart did shine more light on a hugely important issue, an issue where actual lives are in danger.

Broken children have their lives destroyed and stolen everyday. Their destruction is awful and pervasive and systemic, similar to racism. And nobody cares. I can't take the field and place my hand over my mouth anymore. I can't be forced to my knees in front of predators anymore. As more teen girls are killing themselves, I can't stay silent anymore. Self-harming and suicide rates are higher than they have ever been, in the younger members of the group I belong to. The re-exploitation of broken children is common place, and men like you publicly choose to do it with zero repercussions. Nobody is talking about this deadly important issue that destroys and steals lives.

You have a public platform. You have used it to continue re-exploiting broken children. You have, for these past 7 months, had an opportunity with my numerous emails here, to learn better, and do better. You have had a chance to make a difference, at least in your own behavior. There is no honor or grace in your heart. Only a desire to continue harming and endangering broken children. Your need to fuck girls with "BPD," with "daddy issues," is something you choose to continue doing. Your grooming of broken sexualized girls is such an obsession for you, you can't risk telling law enforcement about me, a person who is sending more than enough emails to you to get me investigated by law enforcement.   You have not sent one simple email telling me to stop, because after you got my next email, you would not be able to follow through with law enforcement.   Your email and social media dm history is not something you can afford having law enforcement sift through. That is how strong your predatory sexual addiction is.    

The group I belong to has no one like Rosa Parks who can take a stand as an honorable person who represents us.  Most of my group still under 40 dont have enough agency to know what is being done to, and stolen from, them in the first place.  This discussion about the re-exploitation of sexualized children won't get to be started with honorable acts like holding signs while crossing a bridge, or taking a knee with graceful resolve.  The very act of taking a knee holds zero grace for the group I belong to.  That's one of the first things that gets stolen from us.

Two emails. Brooke Shields

 "Her own words"

Apr 8, 2023, 6:21 AM

“That last scene in the movie where they are confident and free. They’re confident, they’re being listened to, I’m proud of them speaking their mind,” Shields said of her daughters in an interview with People on the red carpet of the documentary’s New York premiere. “They are young women who are already beginning to find their own agencies. It took me until practically today.”

Brooke's own words. There you have it, old man. Truth. Two adults, me, and now Brooke Shields, who were sexualized as children, have clearly stated that the "agency" word you used to describe young broken girls on "Not Cool," is the one thing sexualized children do NOT have.  Every sexualized child has ZERO agency. That IS what is stolen from every single child who is fucking sexualized. That is IT. That is the crux of why child exploitation is a truly horrendous crime. That is wtf I mean when I say that you will always know if a girl is a victim of child exploitation. Any, EVERY, girl who shows any interest in an old man like you, has experienced some form of sexualization.   Such girls have ZERO agency. They have been exploited sexually. A girl who has never been sexualized, who has been raised to start developing agency, will NEVER be interested in any adult your age who fucks broken girls. That is fucking goddam truth. And in your mind, you KNOW this. That is exactly why you go after broken children. Because you CAN.

"Flight"

Apr 8, 2023, 7:24 PM

I know your mind is quite capable of takin little flights off into weird spaces, inside that old head a yours. Mine does it, too. This afternoon took some strange twists and turns, landed me having a coupla bizarre and serendipitous convos with a few different folks. Somehow, I ended up back home sitting on my couch, where my mind went completely rogue on me. In the space of about 30 seconds, I imagined the absolute craziest scenario ever. I have no idea why in the fuck this came to me. I am tryin to shake these cobwebbed thoughts the fuck outta my brain. My head has lost its damn mind. Like to hear it? No? Oh well. Here it goes.

Imagine you, and Brooke Shields along with some of the women who spoke during her documentary, and maybe, I don't know, maybe some well known attorney who prosecuted that asshole doc nasser mf'er, all doing a WTF podcast regarding the growing epidemic of childhood sexualization. No, old man, this is not some trick scenario to fuck with your head. My mind seriously saw this, in a brief flash in my head. All I could think is how, since last Sept 1st, you have been getting a real onslaught of information, from Bradley Whitford, Brooke Shields, and of course, a never ending barrage from yours truly. Dude, you could be a real, honest to higher-power fucking hero. No, NOT one a those bullshit patriarchal motherfuckers who climbs some child's hair to rescue some goddam underage damned-to-hell damsel in distress. We have already established that you have ZERO business being in the vicinity of exploited children. No. I mean, you now have a much deeper understanding of how the actual fucking futures of innocent children are thrown under the giant wheels of predators. Gather up those people our age and older, with experience, like Brooke and Alice and those who have battled predators, like attorney David Slader in Portland, who was part of fighting the Catholic church. And Bradley Whitford, too. All those who understand well everything that is forever destroyed and erased with every child who is sexually exploited. Get these people talking. Get this conversation going. Jesus fucking christ, this conversation needs to goddam happen, right fucking now. You could make this happen. My mind fucking saw that group in your garage, in an imagined kinda panel, doing something truly heroic, truly worthwhile. For less than a full minute, my mind could envision such a group.

Okay, take all the time you need to laugh at the dumb slut in the PNW. But old man, you know I'm on to something. Come on, Maron, you know there is something good that could come from such a gathering, such a discussion, such a group of diverse humans who know exactly how much sexual exploitation of children damages such a large number of humans. Do something truly helpful. Call out those who act like you have, call on those who have personal insight, help end the lives stolen and destroyed by sexual exploitation and re-exploitation. 

Too crazy? Yeah, I know. Just my brain, seeing something that is not now, or never in the future, gonna stand an ice-chip's chance in hell of happening.   

"They know all that stuff"

"They know all that stuff"

Apr 3, 2023, 6:20 AM

You really believe that children "know all that stuff." Just because they hear it?  You somehow think because a child hears the words "toxic masculinity," they now know all that stuff? You know damn well, a child doesn't know a goddam thing about any of the terms they hear everyday. If hearing about something was all a child had to do to know something, a 6 yr old could move out and hold a job and drive a car. Sex is no fucking different than any other fucking thing. Children do NOT understand anything. They are fucking children. Stop trying to prove that "she knows what's up. See, she's asking for it. She understands what much older people are really thinking and doing. She is asking for it, look at the terms and tv shows and news stories she is exposed to. She knows."

Children know nothing. Broken girls like (three of the many girls Maron has re-exploited since Aug 2020) et al, know absolutely nothing about wtf an old man like you is doing. Nothing.

"Bad Guys"

 "Bad Guys"

Apr 3, 2023, 5:02 AM

So, I am listening to your interview with Brooke Shields. And I caught something you said which gave me a clearer picture of part of the fallacy you believe, part of the way you, maybe even subconsciously, excuse your exploitation of damaged girls. Let me try to make this clearer for you.

When I was around 3, my mom started making me wear a shirt, when I was playing outside with my cousins.  My other female cousins, and of course the boys, did not yet have to wear shirts if we were out in the yard playing in the sprinklers or having mud or water-balloon fights.  My mom told me that there were bad men who want to hurt little girls who don't wear shirts. So, I wore shirts outside.

We lived in Ukiah, CA, for about 9 months, when I was 12.  The story of Steven Staynor's abduction/disappearance was a well known topic there.  Later, during the time I was first being groomed and abused by the principal in another state, it was on the news that Steven had been found and was back home.  I remember the pictures of his abductor.  Scary looking guy.  I knew that Steven's abductor was a bad man, like the ones I had to be protected from by wearing a shirt when I was 3.  I knew this.  Not once, in all of this knowing, did I ever think to look at my father, pam, the men pam knew, or the principal, and see that they were predators just like Steven's abductor/rapist.  Not once.  

You tried to say something about how Brooke's daughters and their peers are all so aware of things now days, because of the #me,too, movement, and the social climate now days.  You believe that, don't you?  That is wrong.

When you smile at, and get close to, and groom, and lie to, and con little broken girls, they believe that you are not lying to them, and that you must not be one of those predators they hear about.  In fact, grooming is the act of so dishonestly portraying yourself publicly, that nobody knows you are a predator.  Young people believe if men like you were bad predators, you would look like the mug shot of men like Steven Staynor's abductor.  The news would mention your name, like it talks about the predators who have been apprehended.  You are not on the news in some mugshot.  You are an accepted celebrity. No one says you are fucking little hurting girls and leaving them suicidal.  No one, least of all you, tells these little girls that you are juggling a bunch of other broken girls as you are conning them.  These girls really believe you are bonding with them, you care about them.  What you are really doing to broken girls is never mentioned anywhere, by anyone, especially by you.  This is why children are never capable of understanding and protecting themselves from predators.  They think Steven Staynor got yanked up off the street by some obvious monster.  They don't know that a nice adult came up to him and lied to him.  Not some monster who looked like a mugshot.  Some smooth talking adult.  Just like the principal was a smiling administrator of a religious school, accepted and loved by the adults around him.  No one said he was lying to girls, and leaving them suicidal.  Children may know about "me,too" movements, and hear about dangerous shit happening to other children, but the nice man who runs their school and is friends with church members, is not telling anyone what he is doing, and these kids are way too young to know that you, and that principal, and any old man who pays any attention to damaged children is a predator.  Is always a predator.  This is not something that kids can ever be taught to know or understand while they are young. This is something only time can teach them. The girls you ruin today are not at all aware that you are a predator. They believe your grooming lies.

I feel like this will have to be reworded, this concept, many times, for you to fully understand what I mean, and quit believing little sexualized broken children know damn well what you are doing. They do not. Children will never be safe from predators like you, no matter what social movements are happening around them. Predators do not carry signs saying "I am a predator."  

To look at a broken child, and try to say "Hey, they've been raped, so they know exactly how I am going to lie to them, because they have already been exploited," is cruel garbage. That's the epitome of feeling like you are free to kick someone, because they are already on the ground.

Please Don't Forget

 Anyone reading this blog, please, don't ever let yourself forget why I am posting these.  There is a very young broken victim of Marc Maron's who has many posts about suicidal ideation, and a post with a gun in her possession.   Mr. Maron has finally, within the last few hours, made it so I can no longer tag him on Twitter.  He is very aware of what I am doing.  He won't call authorities, because he can't risk what they might find. He wants to ignore these posts.  That's how little he cares for the life of a broken girl he used.  He is not going to address any of this.  

In one of my first emails to wtfpod, I told him he was gonna find out just how relentless a girl with "daddy issues" can be.  I will never stop thinking about the bitten nails in their photos. I will never ignore the broken girl with a gun.

Blather. Rinse. Repeat

 

This is an email I sent after listening to more of Mr. Maron's older podcasts, and feeling ill at how free he felt to speak openly about exploiting much younger girls, how he was "resolving" their issues, and in the same breath make fun of them for those painful issues.  He would make fun of their behavior, laughing at their expense.  He was purposely picking broken girls, girls who were at an age he refers to as being a "child," when he speaks of himself, or even his own parents, at that same age.  A girl that age would never think to look at a 46 yr-old man unless she had experienced the very type of sexualization that creates the exact problems Maron then makes fun of them for having. Publicly.  He has made money getting laughs about the mental and emotional issues that are inherently going to be present in the very girls who are programmed to respond to grooming old men like Maron.   

Yeah.  Things haven't changed.  They may be worse.  Shit, it is no surprise at all to me that teen girls are self-harming and killing themselves at higher rates than ever.  Nobody is protecting them.  

Anyway, here is an email I sent as I was contemplating these sick truths last Oct.:

"Blather. Rinse. Repeat.

Oct 6, 2022, 7:26 AM

If you walk around thinking your dick is a supportive resolving essence unto itself, I can start to maybe understand a couple of problems you display or even speak openly about. First, I bet you don't think of yourself as a "flasher." I bet you think that you were giving that girl on the set in Canada a "gift," a chance to be "helped" by the maron meat. Setting aside the absolutely gross and degrading emotional trauma such perverted behavior causes the victim, there is nothing about your dick that has ever helped anyone solve anything emotionally. Ever. And this brings me to the second problem. The broken girls you love to be "daddy" to, think you are offering to love them forever in a real, true way, which is the healing they are longing for. Telling them you are "resolving" their "daddy" issues sounds like you are offering to step in and give them unconditional love forever, which is at the root of the very real issues they need to resolve. They have already been objectified, sexualized, and abandoned. They assume you must want to give them what they missed out on, the real, unconditional, non-sexualized love they need. You are grooming them to let you repeat the abuse already done to them. Of fucking course they glom onto you and do everything they can to keep you from abandoning them. That is the promise you made to them by using the word "resolve," by telling them they are special and mind-blowing, by getting them to tell you stories of how each of them experienced abuse. You made the promise to "resolve" their pain. You wrote that word into your jokes. You have said it publicly. The broken girls truly believe if you were just going around re-abusing young girls, society would have gotten you in trouble long ago, an old celebrity who has been doing this for decades. No wonder you have had stalking problems and are always trying to extricate yourself from a toxic relationship. Your basic "resolving daddy issues" dogwhistle is a blatant grooming lie, set up to draw in the broken child, and their broken mind cannot deal with having to see you were only abusing them exactly as their abuser already had abused them. That breaks them into even more destroyed pieces, and you do not give a shit. You are creating damage you cannot begin to understand, all so you can get off on their original pain. You have no call to ever blame a broken girl for the way she acts to try and keep you from leaving. You caused this, as the old man who knows exactly what he is doing. You have the age, the power, the status (a celebrity for a long time, and now you're in kids movies, mother fucker), and the expertise at phrasing your grooming dogwhistles. You, your dick, and your predatorial beliefs have never, and will never, support or heal anyone. Ever. Read it again: You, your dick, and your predatorial beliefs have never, and will never, support or heal anyone. Ever. Think this again. Say it to yourself again. Lather. Rinse, Repeat."

"Well, hell"

 This post will include a paragraph from the first email I sent to wtfpod.com after my millennial moment.  At that point, I think I was hopeful that Mr. Maron might say he was unaware of how much damage he was doing.  I figured he was that decent man who had made a point of explaining how he quit using the "R" word after someone took the time to tell him how it made them feel.  I was hoping his behavior toward girls with BPD, caused by sexual exploitation, was something he hadn't thought deeply about.  I wanted to give him a chance to respond, as I knew he had done for others who took the time to ask him about important issues surrounding trauma and mental health.  I truly did not want to have to realize he was choosing to behave in predatory ways toward victims of abuse.

I never got any email response to my "Well, hell," message at all.  But there was a response to another message that had been sent to him, a message from an adult who had no idea how the next 8 months was going to play out, and prefers to remain anonymous, as there was a picture involved.  Mr. Maron's response to that message made up my mind for me.

One other thing did occur right after I sent "Well, hell," and I guess it could have been in direct response to my email, but I have no way of knowing for certain. It was a post by Mr. Maron, within hours of "Well, hell," and the timing was brought to my attention later, by one of 3 individuals I personally know, who were made aware of all this a few months back, and gave me some advice and outside perspective on everything.   

I am only including one paragraph from "Well, hell," because there is some mentions of other people in the rest of the email who have no bearing on anything.  This one paragraph expresses where I was at, before my eyes started adjusting to the darkness of the rabbit hole I had just entered.  

"Aug 30, 2022, 10:01 PM

Mr. Maron,

This week, a woman was telling me her opinion about you, and I was sure she had to be full of shit. Now, I just wish she had kept her mouth shut. There were things I was missing about some of your personal choices, and I would like to still be clueless. Ignorance is bliss. But my history means I am now totally "triggered" by things I can no longer unsee. They are things that are obviously unimportant to your followers, and to you, but I am losing something here, and it makes me sad."